What am I doing in my life??

It’s 4 am in the morning and some weird random thoughts are running inside my head. being introverted is not easy. I admit it. I can’t fake it anymore. and it’s completely normal if you can’t make any new friends.

I’m an introvert, yes. I tried to change and failed miserably and that’s okay. now I can be myself. all these years I have survived without any real good friends. knowing a lot of people does not mean that they are your friends. they exist for a reason. who knows, I might find one in the future with whom I can share my nerdy tech talks, discuss ideas.

oh man, it hurts. when you are not invited to the trips, ignored. fuck, that’s okay. it is not my mistake. I’m in the wrong place. not invited for a trip? no-problem- solo travel exists. I can try talking with strangers rather than backstabbers who exists just to make use of me.

one thing I realized, people value the skillset which you possess. instead of trying hard to make new connections, be yourself, as long as you can communicate with your teams, convey the ideas, you are good enough. just focus on your work, upgrade your skills.eventually you will end up finding like-minded people along the way.